Sometimes the passing of time really truly freaks me out. I was thinking this morning how I would like to do one last post before 2013 and I remembered what I did last year. So I sat down to post the top 10 pics of 2012 and I had a moment where it literally felt like I just sat down to do this one year ago. Seriously weird and freaky. I mean, the year is gone! It was one year ago but it feels like one day ago.
The passage of time scares me because I know we only have this one life to live. When you are busy and tired, sometimes you find yourself wishing the time away. But the years, they really do go by too fast. This is why to the core of my being I believe that this is not all there is.
If our human hearts long for permanency, how is it possible that it all ends? How can we desire eternity if eternity is just imagined? All imagined things, even if they do not exists, have truth in them. We cannot conceive of something completely and utterly out of our own experience. Even non-existence is out of our realm of experience. A person cannot imagine "nothing" - admit it, you are thinking of whiteness, or blackness...but guess what, those are things too! So to me, having faith in life after death is much the same as having faith in nothing after death. They both require faith. Eternal life seems much more reasonable to me. The passage of time brings a certain amount of panic in me, until I close my eyes and imagine what heaven might be like. Heaven, outside of time. No fear of endings. No fear of death.
But for now, I will do my humanly best to be grateful for this time on earth (which by the way, in the bible it says there will be a new heaven and a new earth) Having ways of recording time and experiences goes back to the earliest humans who wrote on cave walls. I feel it's important to take pictures, to write, to record. It helps me feel less panicky and it really helps to look back on the pictures and remember. Dates with Mike, Younger versions of us. One year old Josie, little Louisa, pregnant me. Less cluttered living rooms, blond summer hair, chubby toddler bellies. Because now everything is changed. And it will continue to change no matter what.
Let me just record. Let me remember. Remember with me. And look forward to the close of 2013, when I sit down to do this again. I know it will feel like only a day.
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| At the Pacific Science Cetner First baby/preggers picture of Michael - January 2012 |
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| The epitome of summer. I did not want summer to go away this year :( |
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| I love our butterfly pictures from the Science Center. Butterflies are so pretty and dainty and I just love them. |
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| All my lovely friends! I love them more as the years go by :) |
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| This was from a Religious Freedom rally Mike and I attended this summer. 5 priests and hundreds of people from our area. It was pretty cool. 2013 has been deemed by the pope a Year of Faith The Catholic church is going to need it, as I sense 2013 a year of continued persecution and pressure from the world to conform. But the church will never conform, it will never back down. The church is a sleeping giant. |
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| This photo captures for me a central feeling of 2012 - Anticipation. |
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| And then, he was here. A son. |
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Although I'm tempted to make this father/son shot #1 I thought about it and it occurred to me that one of the themes of 2012 that I caught on to, finally, and one that I'd like to re-visit more often in 2013 is not taking myself too seriously. It's actually a virtue;
humor.
I need to work on that. Just letting things slide, going with the flow, and just being happy when things are crazy. I mean, I do have three little children!
humor.
I need to work on that. Just letting things slide, going with the flow, and just being happy when things are crazy. I mean, I do have three little children!
| You just have to smile and go with the flow. :) |
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| Our beloved priest. 2013 should be the year he finally gets to retire. |
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| Love the composition of this. Lou looking out the window after a snow storm |
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| Back when it was the two of them! This was on St. Patrick's day. We were getting ready to go to liturgy and a party after church. |
What a year it was!!
Happy New Year!

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